“The occurrence of being made to face an unpleasant fact.”
“If you have a rude awakening, you have a severe shock when you discover the truth of a situation.” (Dictionary.com and Free Dictionary.)
“You’re in for a rude awakening Chelsea.” I was caught completely off guard the first time I heard this sentence nearly audibly. It was March of this year. I was hoping, packing and praying for the opportunity to come here to YWAM Kona. I had never before heard such an abrupt statement that made me question whether it was God or not. So naturally, I disregarded the sentence I heard and continued on in my fundraising.
As the days and the weeks went by I continued to hear this sentence, “You’re in for a rude awakening Chelsea.” In all honesty I questioned if this thought, this statement, was coming from the enemy. Thankfully it was not. Fast forward to my plane ride here to YWAM Kona April 6th. I was napping on the plane, my head in my arms, rested on the tray pulled down behind the seat in front of me. Suddenly, I was woken up. I was woken up by the same statement but this time it came with more detail, more insight. I have never heard the audible voice of God but this experience on my plane ride to Kona was sincerely the closest thing to audibly hearing Him that I have ever experienced. I was awoken as I heard; “You’re in for a rude awakening Chelsea. I am going to break you down and build you back up into the woman you never thought you could become.” My immediate response : “Woah, oh no.” Lol. It was both exciting to hear almost audibly and so directly from God, yet also I was struck deeply by the fear of the Lord. For two reasons. For one; that He would give me the honor to hear from Him so clearly and directly and secondly; I trembled with the reality and curiosity of what being broken down would look like.
Its been an amazing and life changing experience here at YWAM Kona. Each week of class is filled with incredible, admirable and seasoned saints. All of who teach us from their own experiences of walking with Jesus in such a steadfast, self sacrificial way. I began to hear more and more frequently of the short and long-term missionary endeavors of these teachers I had the opportunity to glean from. That’s when I heard it again, the sentence, the heads up from Jesus. This time with the final portion added to it. “You’re in for a rude awakening Chelsea. I am going to break you down and build you back up into the woman you never thought you could become, and take you to places you never thought you could go.
A few weeks ago in speaking with one of my school leaders/ outreach leaders I shared this word from the Lord and it sparked their curiosity as to what the rude awakening looked like. I wasn’t sure what it meant quite yet so I pondered this for a few days, maybe a week.
Quick reminder: Rude Awakening as described in Dictionary.com “An occurrence of being made to face an unpleasant fact.”
Last week an incredible missionary of 20 years came and shared countless stories of the doors God opened for her to be used in many countries and amongst many lost, forgotten, hurting, broken, and unreached people. I cried each class session as my eyes were opened to the NUMBERS of sex slaves, both adult and children. The Numbers of orphans because of the Numbers of people victim to being massacred by HIV. The Numbers of child soldiers. The Numbers of people who have never heard the name of Jesus. And many more, many, many more NUMBERS. This was my RUDE AWAKENING.
One very common response to the injustices in this world is to feel overwhelmed with the thought of, “But what can I do? I am only 1 person.” Let me help you by bringing to remembrance our Lords sweet ministry to people during His time on earth. He being one person often ministered to one person. Not always but for a large sum of His time here. Ex: John Ch.4 Jesus stopped on His journey to Galilee He stopped in Samaria to minister to one Samaritan woman. There are many other testimonies in the bible of God reaching out to one soul at a time. In the same way may we take our time to reach the one God has set in front of us. One child at an orphanage, one prostitute on the street, one person on the way to work, one co-worker at work, one family member at home, one person at school or all of the above. Be led by Him daily and don’t discount your ministry to the one. God died to save that one. Who knows, they could be the next Billy Graham. We can change the world and end these injustices by taking our time and taking initiative to love just one person at a time. Of this I am convinced.
Initially when I heard this word from God I was afraid but now I see clearly. The rude awakening I am currently experiencing is taking on the heart of God and being willing to let Him break my heart for what breaks His. He is also giving me His eyes. He’s breaking me down and my finite shallow perspective of life. He’s ruining me with His vast, unconditional love for the nations and for every single soul. He is building me back up into a woman who is resistant to apathy and will no longer settle for plan b. I want plan A. I am ready and willing to go wherever He leads me, (Psalm 23). Whether its back home to Ca, back to Kona or to the ends of the earth. In following His leading I refuse to sit back and do nothing about these injustices. It begins and ends with prayer. Beyond traveling somewhere physically I am even more committed to no longer ignoring the reality of the lost, hurting, dyeing, needy and unreached. I will daily look to Jesus in how to pray for these injustices in the world and be led by His Spirit as I minister to the one.
In February this year during a quiet time with Jesus. God spoke to me as I was reading proverb 31. As I read through Proverb 31:8-9 God said “This is your destiny Chelsea.” I wrote “My Destiny” next to those two verses in my bible and in excitement I wondered what that meant. Nearly 4 weeks ago, early May. Two school leaders I had never met prior prayed over me and prophesied these verses over me (Proverb.31:8-9) and said these are life verses from God and that God has given me a heart for injustices. I laughed with joy and began to explain that this was confirmation to God already giving me these verses months ago. God is so good and He does speak.
Proverb 31:8-9 “Open your mouth for the speechless, In the cause of all who are appointed to die. Open your mouth, judge righteously, And plead the cause of the poor and needy.”
May God continue to break all of our hearts for what breaks His. May stir in us a Spirit willing to stand up for the speechless and ready to end the injustices in the world.
Jeremiah 18:3-4 “Then I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was, making something at the wheel. And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hand of the potter; so he made it again into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to make.”
May we become moldable in the hands of God our potter. As He reshapes us children of God into vessels ready to do His will.
May God break our hearts for what breaks His. May He build us up into men and women of action rather than apathy.